convienence

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 21:05:59 GMT

Tomorrow starts my sophmore year for college, not excited one bit. I thought that I would not miss the summer, I was wrong. I wish it was longer, a lot longer, a year longer. Its not though. I met someone who's made me happy without any expectations in return. Of course he left yesterday. This last week was amazing though. I plan on spending lots of weekends up at school with him, its going to be hard but if its supposed to happen, it will.

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 17:55:11 GMT

I have not posted in quite some time now. This past year was honestly the worst for me, and I mean it. Yeah I started my freshman year at college and I had some great friends. People change. My dad died of a heart attack this past Christmas and I miss him everyday. My aunt died eight days later. My family just has no luck obviously. My first semester I did awesome with a 3.2 gpa- which for me was good considering I didnt apply myself too much. My second semester was a mess. I was a mess still from my loss. I withdrew from my classes and just worked full time for a while. One of my so called best friends decided she didnt want to be in my life anymore so we stopped talking a few months ago. No grudges held, not even worth it. Currently I am content with my life. I have some really good friends, unemployed at the moment- but I do start my camp job next week and it should be good. I like the group I got and my co counselor. At least this worked out well for me. I have six tattoos currently, one of which being my half sleeve for my dad. I just took out my septum and lip ring, I was bored of them anyways. Basically the weather is good and theres no reason for me to be unhappy. I started to talk to the guy and weve hung out, I dont want a boyfriend but hes good to be around. I plan on looking for a new full time job in August, until then I will enjoy my summer like a normal kid. Next semester I am going to do awesome, I promised myself I would. What else... OH and I am going to prom again this year, actually this week. Should be okay. Im going with a family friend, and were going to seaside heights afterwards. Im excited to lay on the beach all day. Thats all.

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 22:42:47 GMT

a college update. i have no posted in quite some time. i surprisingly have been busy. school is okay. i dislike the factor of me still being home on long island but i am coping with it. i am doing fairly okay with all of my classes. i get to see mickey,jodi and dylan on a daily basis and they have become my best friends. i miss Melissa terribly though. this is the first time we have been apart for more then 2 months within a fourteen year time period. its hard but we talk often. i want to go and visit her very soon. im still just doing liberal arts. after that i did want to pursue Spanish, but now i might have changed my mind in a different direction. i hate spanish now actually after loving it for six years. i am thinking of doing communications. i am obcessed with that class. my teacher actually wants me to do well and helps me out a lot. he is a wonderful speaker as well. i want to be like him. currently i have been spending all of my free time babysitting and seeing my boyfriend in huntington. its getting harder to go there as much as i would like or want to. i try though and its great when i do see him, we have a lot of fun. his family is really nice and his baby niece is adorable. he is taking me to a haunted house this weekend and to dinner. i am quite excited. i like his group of friends, they're all spontanious and a lot of fun. i have gotten a new tattoo within the past month as well. its on my bicept and says "time has no ememy". i love it. i also had my septum pierced. im not sure how much longer ill have it though, im starting to dislike it. i am bunched up with a ton of work, because i procrastinate so much. my worst habit. oh and im blonde. bleachhh blonde. basically platinum. its crazy. all new changes. its good i suppose. i miss camp, not the people. only a few who have bothered to keep in touch like my ex anthony, or chris who seems like he had a thing for me. then theres mr menard who is my favorite boy ever. back to school work. adios.

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 19:43:41 GMT

where did the time go?

ah so sad. today was my last day of high school ever. i signed out so i could roam and get people to sign my yearbook. everyone was so sad bout leaving, i was kinda happy. when i left and got hope i read what everyone wrote , then got sad and cried. its really over. =/ now i have to grow up? nah. ima miss so many people poo.

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 00:53:13 GMT

I havent updated in a while. mmm this week has been pretty good though. ive been eating soo much fast food lately thanks to alex, even though hes supposed to help me stop ha. havent stayed in school a lot, no point. im not happy when im there, i rather be home sleeping or riding my bike. yesterday i went halfday to school, got subway, went to whitman mall, hung out with mickey and john, and it was rly fun and cute and yeahh. i like him a bunch. we talk on the phone for hours and doesnt get lame. tomorrows senior awards, so we get out early. then i have my kindergarten reuinion. my kindergarten teacher sent out cards to us b/c were her first ever graduating class, so we get a party. then ill prob still be home early. hanging out with mickey at night =) crysties leaving for italy tomorrow =( ima miss her. shes not comming back til the 23 or something long like that. crazyness. not cool at all. lot of work lately and i hate it and half the people. i know im bitching a lot but i do it because i can.

Thu, 24 May 2007 02:22:55 GMT

honestly, i dont feel like i have a boyfriend. he calls once in a while, IMs me every so often, we hang out once a week. i dont mind it, dont hate it, dont like it. idk. i hardly go to school, i hate it. its pointless. the people suck. i am excited for prom and jersey even though my date isnt going to jersey due to the fact that he has a girlfriend. but hes my best friend and i have to respect it. mike was supposed to come down for the weekend from michigan. i was rly excited, noone knows though. i miss him so much. its disgusting. he makes me cry when he calls and when i make him sing to me. this weekend isnt going to be as good as i planned it to be. i suppose joes friday, he wants me to meet his friends who call me gary. saturday work til forever with sean + party at night mayb. i love sean. hes my favorite coworker. we get along so well. he bit me today and i returned the favor. he drew me a cpicture of how he blew up his hamster in the microwave. soooooo good hahahaha. sigh. idk want I want anymore. i just want comfort. afterschool jodi , dylan and I got tropical smoothie, and drivers ed was terrible. derreck likes to kick me. mmm tomorrow mall with jodi shall be nice.

Tue, 15 May 2007 00:33:10 GMT

really good day considering it was a monday. went to school til 6th period. ashley took me to my doc office. they checked out all the spots they stuck needles in me on fri/sat. i walked home from there, it was beautiful out. i came home to nap. then i finished my spanish portfolio since it is due tomorrow and only started it yesterday. go me. i finished. rode my bike a bit/ took pictures for photo class. then joe came overr, and took more pictures for photo project. mostly of him& daryl our duck ha. we had a nice time, til the booger had to go home. eee yay for new boyfriend :D mmm this weeks a busy one; work tues&wed 6-930+ drivers ed sometimes in between+ joetime on wed. eee yay so happy!

Sun, 13 May 2007 04:17:19 GMT

yesterday went out with jod and crystie, went to whitman mall+panera to eat. saw lumpy and kids. went to dp to get slushies at 711. met kids & went to pommonack to chill on swings. today work was mad longg. went to the carnival in front of the mall with crystie, joe and greg. rly rly good night. joe came back here for a bit and now hes walking home awe. im rly happy right now =)

Wed, 09 May 2007 02:32:26 GMT

I had an icky stomach virus today. throwing up til forever, so no school. it was nice outside though. slept a lot. took my 5 hour course with steph,chris and jared. oh wow. creepy guy with the cane who moaned making fun of the asian girl. then the two coke/herion kids rolling something. the other kid asking for the bus and burped a lot. so weirddd. too long. road test soon woo.

Mon, 07 May 2007 23:40:48 GMT

today was alright for a monday, went pretty fast. gym sucked I was alone kinda. our tvj project is interesting, herniks crazy in a good way. im glad our photo bitch wasnt there today, i like raehlie. finished catch me if you can in forensics, such a good movie. much better then the spideyman 3 that i saw on saturday ick. it was fun since i went with my sister+matt & his brother. anyways i slept when i got home from school. found out my neighbor is a manic depressent and tried to commit today. really scary. taking my 5 hour tomorrow with christopher. woo 1 step closer to having my lisence.

Mon, 07 May 2007 00:35:13 GMT

weekend was pretty good. friday had no work. went to club metasin with corey and richard to see emmure, the world we knew, figure without form, and other bands. it was pretty good, we ate icky quiznos, and richard was cranky. i saw zac for the first time in monthssss, and joe was there, along with this kid eric who i have not seen since august. next morning drivers ed was lame, work was longgg. i love a few people at work though; like paul,pat,pauls cousin, dani and all the guys in hardware who like to call me sorry. paul, his cousin and I got quiznos again ha woo 10% discount. and the hardware guys like to tell me alex likes me. right. its funny though. the attention is nice. my manager is sick, i love rob. i had a visitor who i went out with for coffee and a ride around KP psych and the bluffs. twas nice. today special olympics, disaster, so cold, like 20 degrees, rain, hail, terrible. we ran away. oh well. saw jamie though, that was nice, so was warmth and food =)

Thu, 03 May 2007 20:32:02 GMT

today was soooo fucking good. went to school til 3rd period. jodi and colleeen picked me up. we got panera and did some errands. then we went to pats brothers house. he did my tattoo; which is fucking awesome, [pictures soon] and then jodis 3 piercings. goodtimes. we hit up smithhaven afterwards and got cinnabun, a new shirt, and alexs bday presents. woo im happy and its beautiful out =)

Tue, 01 May 2007 00:45:40 GMT

successfully went to a full day of school. was pretty lame. picked out the new tattoo i want. hopefully getting it soon. got paid today, nicee stuff.

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 21:41:36 GMT

last night was quite successful. went to applebees with crystie jon & ryan. ate dinner , picked up mommys mothers day gift at the mall+ jellybeans then went to farmingdale to see a movie. we saw 300. we got bitched at by an old lady for talking. "i didnt come here to hear you talk!" haha scared us. stupid old bitch. the movie was... well good? idk didnt watch most of it. i was laying on ryan the entire time and it was cute. afterwards we chilled in the parking lot for a while. then crystie and I went back here and passed out after watching scarred. woke up, got breakfast from tom brown. then i had work 1245-4. went well, had jellybeans and sodoku with the ladies. made some bag sales. good day.

Sat, 28 Apr 2007 03:50:04 GMT

today was very successful. didnt go to school. went to candlelight diner for breakfast with jodi and ryan. then we chilled at ryans house for a while,watched dazed and confused, smoked a bit, ate some food and locked him out of his own room for 20 mins. were cruel. poor crane. we hit up commerce bank and got ryans car. then zb and apps came. they rolled a blunt. chilled, and shit. jodi and i got kfc afterwards, then east coast psychadelics, and some hair place. then we painted stuff at plaster funcraft. took the bus home ha. workedd from 4-8. was rly boring and lame and gross. crystie picked me up, we hit up whitman mall. walked around afor a bit, bought some tees and jeans. ate at panera. met up with jon and ryan and friends. then chris came and we all drove to misery mountain. walked through the muddy, gross, puddle filled icky woods. it was crazy foggy and scarey. but i had ryan there as my buddy and it was rly cute. he carried me for a little and we held hands for the rest. we all drove back to the mall and it was a fun ride haha. sucha good night :]

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 22:16:25 GMT

RIP Zeeshan
I wasnt too close with the kid, but its still sad what happened. He was in my college algebra calss last year. He would always goof on dryburgh and made the class a better place to be. I kinda miss that.

Anyways didnt go to school today. Chilled at blakes. we went roller blading and watched saved by the bell. I went to starbucks then drivers ed. so lame. pretty good day. thirs weekend should be good, a lot of work but good show: suicide silence, stick to your guns, bury your dead.

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 01:09:52 GMT

today i accomplished staying in school for entire day, not one class missed. go me. tvj project almost complete, i think its our best one yet. photo project nowhere close to done. watching freedom writers in creative writing, sooo good. i remeber when i saw it with zac, steve and abby; sigh good times. after school ichilled. then biked to deer park. met up with blake and justin. saw moe. and then i saw sara parrish . havent seen them in sooo long. it was nice tho; refreshing. chilled at justins/blakes for a while. biked home in the dark. it was rly scary, and i am never doing it again. soo exausted.idk bout school tomorrow.

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 22:09:51 GMT

mm so gym was fun today, we played and i scored, but it didnt count, dumb tapping rule. aiding was boring, then jodi and I left and went to the beach. we were headed to sunken meadow but ended up at robert moses. chilled for a few hours. then left, got starbucks, went back to school. the weather is goegeous. the beach was calm. yeahh. drove around with moma a lot today. sunburn is sweet.

Sun, 22 Apr 2007 14:09:36 GMT

this whole weekend is pretty good. the weather is lovely. friday i worked til 8 which wasnt bad at all. crystie picked me up and we drove around all night. stopped in different towns, got food, saw people and yeah. good time. good holiday haha. saturday drivers ed was sweet, we drove to the beach and i overcame my fear of bridges kinda... i drove over one so that was an accomplishment. yay. work was boring, got to be on the floor. scarey stuff, idk what im doing at all. then i got panera, went home,showered,changed, met up with jodi and mandees. got tropical smoothie, back to her house. then school at 7 for senior show. the call on me act was obvs the best. too bad i broke my cammera last night after i taped it. we left right after senior ideo played. got wendys, then tim met up with us. we went to citgo, got some drinks, went to silo. we played around and it was fun. crystie left us at 1130. then we basically all left a little after that anyways. tim drove me home. and i passed out ha. ah todays beautiful yet i have work til 4 lovely. oh and bobby sucks.

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 01:23:40 GMT

not a terrible monday. waking up was difficult. english was sweet we didnt work, just watched coach carter. i love ms mannino and i am totally grateful for not switching out of her class when i was terrified of her the first weeks of school. my tvj group wants to kill me. literally. the next video i am being murdered in. lovely. i hate photo officially due to the new teacher. shes a bitch. spanish sucks, wasnt good without vinny. mmm everything else was lame. tutored afterschool for like half hour. made ten dollas. money is money woo. doing the same tomorrow. then i start training at sears. fun? not rly. ick there til 830. at least gym will be good haha.

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 22:07:59 GMT

friday was antiviolence day. so there were assemblys and such. i went to all of them. best acts hands down was meeg,kt,kathrynn,ashleen, and nina, alyssa's dance. also nina/meg gradys song was rly good, and the last ska band owned. everyone else ... eh. hardly went to class oh well.dont remember much else. went out to dinner with jodi and jon. we got applebees sooo good. broke my diet ha. felt good. after we walked round target for a while, saw mike and his moma. jodi and i got these ridiculous outfits and socks. sooo good, yet bad at the same time. not meant to be worn in 40 degree weather. we went to mikes that night. he had a little bonfire at his house. buncha people were there. drivers ed the next morning sucked, but we got dunkin donuts cuz we have a sweet teacher. then we did u-turns on indian head road. sat night i babysat 4 kids from 430 til like 2 am. made 120 bucks. woke up today at 5pm hah. so good to sleep that late. ate so much last night. yeah. dont wana go to school tomorrow.

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 23:22:54 GMT

so i kinda decided not to go to school again. im getting bad at this stuff. but i didnt get caught today which is good. knock on wood. anyways bobby picked me up around 9 and we chilled at his house all day. we just watched movies and slept a lot. eventually we woke up and got pizza. it was fun :D

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 01:30:03 GMT

"So keep things quiet until the rest of the street falls asleep
Then we’ll break out and show everyone just what were made of
So young, lets abuse our health and have a little fun
I’ll drink to that, let’s drink to that"

anyways today was slow. gym jackie and I were completely lost during speedball oh wow. aiding for kamanicki was lame without meg. tvj we didnt watch our video thankgod ha. and photo im getting way behind in. its terrible. spanish i hate essays, and forensics we actually took notes and didnt go far from the topic we were actually on. surprise surprise. left in the middle of creative writing haha. corey got me tropical smoothie soo happy. i left with jod. we drove around a lot, ended up picking up her a smoothie, getting me another job application, getting ciggs, then hitting up deer park for a bit. went home, went to holbrook for my drug testing, went good ha word. yeah today was interesting. 411.

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 22:50:12 GMT

so today went pretty well for first day back from break. term paper due thursday. 14 pages of excellance haha. tvj is a shithole haha. oh boy. photo is not fun rly anymore idk. spanish sucks, so does forensics. senoritis for me is here.interview went nicely. i have the job as long as i pass the drug test tomorrow. sears woo. i get to sell microwaves,vaccums and sewing machienes haha exciting? right.

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 22:53:59 GMT

slept late. woke up got screamed at and cleaned. went back to sleep until 630. lovely day really....